Learning to enjoy the journey

I’ve been able to start running more, which feels great. I’ve had several runs in the past week that have been 2 milers. Two miles can seem really insignificant when I compare it to the mileage I was running a year ago but I’m learning that I need to stop worrying about where I was in the past or where I want to be in the future. People often ask what I’m training for and seem surprised when I don’t have a race planned. For now, I’m just trying to enjoy the journey. I know I have longer runs ahead and my fitness will improve. I am also aware that I have illnesses and injuries ahead as well and my fitness levels will decrease during those times. I hope I can accept my limitations and continue my streak but I’m also getting to the point where I realize that even that will end someday and that will be ok. I really enjoy the challenge of my streak because it keeps me motivated to exercise even when I would rather not but I don’t feel the urgency to keep it alive like I have in the past and I think that is good for me. I fully intend to keep it going as long as I am able and as long as I continue to enjoy the journey though. I ran 2 miles on Saturday, Sunday, and today.  I’ve run a mile every other day. I was able to do my pull-ups, dips, and a flip on Sunday, which was the first time since my knee injury. That flip really made me dizzy! It felt good to get back to something that is important to me. It also feels ok that I’ve been away for awhile too. My fitness will ebb and flow but that is part of the journey. This streak has really taught me a lot about myself and I’m happy to continue to learn.

More than a mile!

This week has been busy. However, my knee is continuing to improve so I was able to run more than a mile without pain! I’m hoping to have the time to do that again soon. Maybe I will this weekend. I ran just under 2 miles on Wednesday morning before work. I was able to leave my immediate neighborhood while running, which was the first time in almost 4 weeks. I was rewarded with witnessing seven swans a-swimming. I’ve never had the pleasure of seeing that in real life. I’ve been singing about it every December for probably 35 years now and will no longer need to imagine what that might look like. I wish I had taken a picture so I could share the experience. I have managed to squeeze in a mile run every other day this week to keep the streak alive. This week has been much more enjoyable without constant knee pain. I’m even starting to think about doing yoga again. These are exciting times.

Midlife crisis?

I got a pair of rollerblades over the weekend. Someone healing from a fall that occurred while running probably shouldn’t strap a set of wheels to their feet but here we are. I did buy the set of pads that my daughter claims make me look “lame”. She has been learning to rollerblade for the past few weeks so I decided to join her. I did enjoy rollerblading as a teenager but apparently that was too long ago for my brain to believe that they aren’t trying to kill me. The pads help. I honestly thought it might be a good way to get more physical exercise without jarring my knee joint as much. I didn’t expect there to be such a large relearning curve. So far the only extra physical exercise I’ve gotten has been an increase in heart rate due to anxiety. I am reading The Places That Scare You by Pema Chödrön. It turns out that every place scares me when I’m wearing rollerblades. I’m hoping the book can help get me through the fear. I have been consistently running my daily mile to keep my streak alive. It still feels like a chore but I can tell my knee is getting better. My pace has gotten back to my pre-injury state but I’m just running significantly fewer miles. I know I’ll get back to where I was but I’m just not super patient. Maybe Pema’s book can help me with that too.