Utter sh*t

I was completely exhausted by the end of the day as I had predicted. I decided to walk a mile and jog a mile instead of a hard workout. I definitely made the right decision. My heart rate was higher than usual and my pace was slow but felt hard. The run was utter sh*t. This is where I generally start down a slippery slope. My thoughts tend to jump to: “I’m so out of shape. I’m really overweight. I just haven’t been running far enough lately .” On and on and on. Obviously, none of that is true from one bad run. I have really struggled so far this summer to make myself a priority. With 4 children, it’s incredibly easy to find myself in 5th place on the priority list. This past week was an exception because of driving my boys to camp an hour away every day. I tried to make the most of it and they really had a great time so I don’t think I would go back and change it if I could. However, yes, my fitness has taken a backseat temporarily. I will need to be purposeful about resetting my priorities this week but I will also have to battle the negative thoughts that will plague me while I’m down. I generally keep a thankfulness journal and write down what I’m thankful for every morning. That was another casualty of this week. I think that will be a good place to start for getting back on track mentally. I know I need to get back on track mentally and emotionally before I can expect much out of myself physically. Everything comes back to kindness.

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